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Anthaa Naa Istam
Written By : Surya Kiran Bommana ( SUKI )
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Avnu….. anthaa na istam….Anni naaku nachinattu jaragaali, kaani avi andariki nachaali anukune swarda parudni nenu….
Maadi konda gandredu gramam. Adi 1956, nenu puttina samvatsaram. Appatlo puttina rojulu recordullo pettinchevaru kadu, inka veelaithe puttina thedi munde pettevaru, mill lo udyaogam thondaraga vastundani…
Eepatike meeku ardamai vunduntundi neneto, na bhootha kaalamento…
Idi 2011,Ippudu na vayasu 55, nakiddaru pillalu…iddaru abbaile…
Peddodu engineer,chinnodu doctor….
Ila cheppukovali ani andariki vuntundi..kani nakundadu…
Endukante naku pellana,pillalanna,ilaanti badyathalanna istam ledu,anduke pelli cheskoledu…………
Na jeevitham antha na ista prakarame jaragaali anukune e nirnayam appatlo teesukunna…
Naku ma voorlo 8 yekarala polam vundedi,adi 1976…appude 20 loki adugupettaanu…
Antha polam em cheskovalo teliyaka, ammesanu…
Na daggara chaala dabbulunnai
Anni dabbulu em cheskovalo teliyaka karchu pettesanu…
Naku chutta tage alavatu ledu, saarai, kallu vaipu chudane ledu…
Motthaaniki naku vyasanam ledu,anduke nannu intlo kani voorlo gani evaru thittevaru kaadu…
Kaani andariki anthu chikkani prasna okati migilipoyindi…antha dabbulu..em chesanu…oka vela dachunte, ekkada??? Oka vela karchu pedithe, ela???enduku???
Nenu evari maata vinna vinakapoyina, andariki gowravam maatre ichevadni…Anduke nenante andariki abhimanam kuda
Naku 22 samvatsaralu vachai..2 samvatsaralu, emi anani ma amma nannalu…appudu thama manasu champukoni 8 yekarala polam kosam adigaru…nenu daanini ammi..em vuddarinchaana ani??
Appudu kanna tallidandrulaki nijam cheppakapothe aa jevitham vyardamani talachi. Ee vidham ga cheppukochanu
“amma, nanna.. Meerante naku abhimanam. Alage mimmalni andaru abhimaaninchaali ane drukpadam tho nenu aa dhanamantha mee peru meede karchupettaanu…ee voorlo vachina aa dabbultho, pakka zillaa lo 12 yekaraala sthalam konnaanu…akkada mill kadutunnaanu,adaina tarvatha meeku chepdaamani thalachaanu “ani cheppesariki, vaalu thama manasulo kasepu chintinchi nenu cheyyaboye panulu savyam ga saagaalani aaseervadinchaaru.
Nako manchi sambandham vachindi,naku ammai nachindi, kani ammai ki nenu nachaledu… Aa ammai svathantra bhaavalu kaligina yuvathi kanuka ala cheppagaligindi, lekapoyunte jeevithaantham istam lekunda gadapaalsi vachedi..Appudarmaindi pelli chupulakani ammai intiki velli,koncham mikchure,rendu sweetlu,oka seethala paaniyam taagi ammai nachinda babu ani deenam ga adige ammai thandridi chusi voorelli vuttharam rasthanu ani cheppi velli, nachithe parledu…nachakapothe aa ammai pade badhento, vaalla thallidandrulu pade badhento…
Appude nirnayinchukunnaanu..pelli vaddani…naku nachakunda okammai ni pelli cheskolenu, nenu nachakunda nannu pelli cheskomani oka ammai ki cheppalenu..
Intlo nachacheppaboyaru,aina na nirnayam maaraledu…abhiprayaanni marchachu, kaani nirnayaanni evaru marchaleru kada…
Appude andaru nannu thittukovadam modalettaaru..aina ANTHA NA ISTAM annanu..konni rojulu maatladukunnaru..tarvatha evari pani varide kada..
Kaani ma amma naannalu na niryaniki badha paddaru…aina em cheyyalem kada..nenu bathikunnanthavaraku variki a lotu rakunda chuskuntaanani cheppi vodarchanu,,,
Appatike naku voorlo monarch la chudadam alavataindi..veedantha vadiki nachinatte chestadu ani, na dhorani kuda alaane maarindi..
Idi 1981,na mill ni terichina samvatsaram
Tarvatha koddi rojulaki milli teruchukundi, modatlo nastaallo nadichindi.. andaru vekkirinchadam, navvadam, kanabadina chotalla avamaaninchadam mamulaipoyayi..
Nannu na millunu nammukoni bathukutunnavariki ela aina vupadhi kalpinchaalani kontha kaalam kasta padi mill ni laabhaala batalo nadipinchanu.
Idi 1986, naku muppai yellu….
vunnattundi oka roju mill ammesanu..andaru aascharyaniki gurayyaru..aina tappaledu mari..
Aardikamga alaanti avasaram vachindi…andaru NEE ISTAM ani chepaaru..elagu cheppina mata vinanu ani telsu kada…
Vachina dabbultho kanyakumari nundi kashmir varaku konni samvatsarala patu jolly ga gadipi voorki bhikari la vachanu…voorlo andaru enduku ra ila chesav annaru…
NA ISTAM..na jeevitham ani oka mata cheppi vachesanu,,.(adi kuda gowravam gane lendi)
Voorlo vunna illu tappa em ledu…
Idi 1996,
Nenu, na illu ide sarvasvam…naku etuvanti badyatha ledu, bharya biddalu ane baruvu ledu…kaani voorlo kondaru maatram life veedla gadapali emem cheyyalanukunnado anni chesadu ani antunte okintha garvam ga anipistuntadi…
Nijame, manam edaina cheyyachu anukune vadu, edaina cheyyagaladu…
Thana, mana ani chuskunte emi cheyyaledu….
2000 samvatsaram millenium pandagalu chesukuntunna samayam lo,nakosam nakoka nijam telsindi…Naku cancer ani, ekkuva kaalam bathakanani..
11 samvatsaraalu bathikanu..eppudeppudu chavu vastunda ani eduru chusthune bathukutunnanu,..noppini barinchalenu,Nannu chusukune nadhudu ledu..
Kani voorlo andaru ippatiki nee istam vachinatte bathuku ani ekkiristharu..(prema Gane lendi)
Andaru aa konni samvatsaralu patu nenedo bharata desam mottham vihaara yatra ki vellaanu anukunnaru…Kani nijam ento naku telsu…chanipoye lopu okkarikaina aa nijam cheppaalannade na aasa..
Mill ammaka mundu na tallidandrulu kaalam chaalinchaaru… Vaalla asthikalni kaasi nundi kanyakumari varaku…kashmir lo himalayaallo jeevam posukune prathi jeevanadi lo kalipi vachanu..
Antha dabbu daanike ayyinda ani sandehinchaddu, appude nakoka aalochana vachindi. Nenu na varakaithe na tallidandrulanu jagrathhaga chusukunnaanu…Kani pillalleni tallidandrula maatemiti, aa vruddaapym lo vari gurinchi aalochince dikkuleni vari matemiti ani aalochinchi, dikku teliyani savaala dahana samskaaralu chusukone oka trust yerpatu chesanu, prathi zilla lonu..na dabbule kakunda, kontha mandi sanga samskarthalu kuda thama vanthu sayam chesi prathi zilla head quarter lonu okaru chuskune vidham ga yerpaatu chesam. Oka zilla lo a panchayati paridhi lo aina ekkadaina dikku teliyani savam vunnattaithe ma trust tarapuna variki dahan samskaaralu chestuntam,maku ivvaalsindi samachaaram maatrame…
Deeniki sahakirinchina peddalandariki na krutagnathalu eppatiki vuntai.
Avnu, na chaavu kuda daggarakochindi kada, Evari teesukunna gothulo vaalle padatharu..evaru chesina chedu vaallake tirgi tagulukuntundi…Anthe kadu, evaru chese manchi kuda vaalake prathibimbistundi, Andukenemo nenu oka vela anaadha ga chanipoyina,anaadha savam maatram avvanu…..
Chanipoye mundu na chivari matokate::
““ tallidandrulunna pillalni evaru anaadhalu anaru, mari pillalunna tallidandrulu kontha mandi anaadhalu ga enduku vundaalsi vastundi???””
Gurtunchukondi, neti kodallu repati atthale ,eeroju pillalu repati peddale…manam pillaluga mana thallidandrulanu chushte, mana pillalu manalni thallidandrulu ga chustharu…
Idi meeru pattinchukunna pattinchukokapoyina, cheppalanipinchadi,cheppaanu…na istam chepthanu..vinte vinandi lekapothe ledu…..”
Antha na istam…naku na thallidandrullana,nenanna chala istam…Jeevitham lo nenu chesina panulanni na ista prakarame jarigayi…Anduke ippudu chavunaina istam gane sveekaristunnanu…
Naku antha na tallidandrule…anduke,,,antha na istmannanu…
-Future Star
Surya Kiran Bommana